{Disposable Lives}


How many names do you have?


3.10.98

The posting area for this story was lost due to a server error sometime in December. So we're starting over.

The question stands: How many names do you have?

derek

    

    
right now? at least 6
generic ones like :
mom
sis
daughter
aunt
obvious ones like :
jen
jennifer
but never jenny I hate jenny!
and less known ones...
which I'll keep to myself thanks :^)

jen {i.am@flawed.com}


sometimes it seems as though i have too many names;
at others, not enough.
.
i have had my names stolen from me.
and new ones given to me.
.
with each name comes a new identity;
but i am still not sure what is lost with each passing of a name.

.  o  b  S  c  U  r  u  S  .  
{scw1125@oberlin.edu}
    

    
When I was tortured in elementary school, I was Gershmub. I couldn't say my own name -- I'm not gershmub, I'm gershmub. Shut up. My name. My name is Gershmub.

People who pretend to know me call me Gersh.

Online I've been many things. When I wanted to be a hacker, I was Kludge. Clever and german. Then I was bazerman, academic, last name, professional. I've taken Pynchon's characters as well. Slothrop, Benny Profane, the whole sick crew. Finally, and it's hard to pinpoint just when, I started signing things "gershom."

Just my name. Nothing clever, fancy, different. I like it that way. There's no identity behind it. It came, I think, with my first webpage. It was me, in green and black, black and white. I like being myself.

But then I've started to take names again. Joan. Diane. Not glamourous. Just plain and female. Not roles, just names. Not secrets, just names. I've learned to tell the difference.

Identity. Sheesh.

gershom {gershom@flabjab.com}


What is it about Jenny? I hate Jenny for me, but I love it for my best friend. I have been Jennifer since I was born, and I have been Jenna for just as long. I have been called Jen by the ones who loved me. I have been called Bitch by the ones who didn't. I have even been called Jenelope in the ritual silly nickname game. I revived it recently for web things, because even though I have only met one other Jenna, apparently we are Legion.

Jenna {jennifer.petroskey@sdrc.com}

    

    
i've always tried, hard, to have one identity. i don't care how many names i have, but it's important that i have one identity. if there's one thing i respect about people, it's that they are always themselves.

the greatest compliment i was ever given was that i was "a guileless man." i had to look it up. when i did, it made me very uncomfortable, because the person who gave me the compliment obviously didn't know me very well.

but i'm trying.

call me scott, call me sco, call me whatever you like. just know me.

sco {sco@zoehouse.com}


For 3 decades I've tried to ward off attempts to contort my name. I've been called Michael, Matchel, and Goose. I seethe when anyone has lobbed "Shelly" my way. Two people on this mortal coil can get by with calling me Micki and I'll still call them my friend, and I have been known to answer to Miche (Meeeshh). But I really like the full, polysyllabic, 8-letter Michelle

m-i-c-h-e-l-l-e {michelle@dragonflypond.com}

    

    
Make me someone I'm not. Just go ahead, I dare you. Just try, and I will see you go down in flames. For too long, I was Faggot, Wierdo, and Nerdboy. Now I have embraced all of them and become who I am today. They lie with me in bed every night. They touch me all over my body. And now, I caress them also.

Jimmy {moonlight23@earthlink.net}


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