Are you sure? {fray} Criminal - Angel


{ wrestling with an angel } are you sure?

It was early summer, right before a thunderstorm. The wind grew stronger with every passing moment, hot and sticky, but with a promise of cool air. We were standing in a parking lot, watching the lightning grow closer. As the first drops fell from the sky, he ran towards the car to be out of the onslaught. I turned my face up and spread my arms out, reveling in the feeling of water on skin and the excitement of the storm. He stopped, and turned towards me.

I smiled and said, "What are you doing?"

"Watching you," he said, smiling back.

With thunder crashing around us, he took me into his arms and we stood there. For a moment, time froze and everything was perfect.

In that moment I realized I loved him more than I ever thought possible, and that I had found the one person I wanted to be with the rest of my life.

As time goes on, what I feel for him only grows. I can't imagine a world without him anymore. Am I sure? Absolutely.

Jeni Grant  16 Jul 2004


The feeling of "being sure" ... knowing that what you are doing is correct, it has a meaning and purpose that you wholeheartedly support.

This is not an easy feeling to achieve, even when it comes to something as simply as selecting bedsheets (are these the right style, are they going to last through several wash cycles, do they feel right???).

Relationships, especially those with lifelong intentions, are not throwaway bedsheets. You are mixing up your own sense of "being sure" with someone else's own sense of "being sure". You've got to be sure together ... this is the magical combination you've found. Sticking with the bedsheet analogy, you've ripped your coveted bedsheets in half and sewn them together with Heather's ... and damn, you discover they look mighty fine together and both sides are as comfy as heck.

You're among the lucky ones. And so am I.

I'm in the middle of my own sense of "being sure". There have been moments in my life where I've thought "this is a special relationship that I want to last a long time". For the first time in my life, I'm now thinking "this is a relationship I want to last a lifetime". Luckily, my fiancee feels exactly the same way.

How do I know I am sure? It's not only the fact that I can see myself spending the rest of my life with her, it's the feeling of "I can't see my life without her". My Mom has often said to me "If I didn't marry your Dad, I never would have considered anyone else" ... I feel precisely the same way.

Jish  16 Jul 2004


Doubting Thomas

He arrived early, demanding full attention, and sentencing, "I am! I am! I am!"

I looked at him with obtuse sincerity, and laughed. "God, you must be kidding me!" I said.

J.P.  16 Jul 2004


My parents are selling the house we've lived in for over 20 years and I'm not sure how much money I'll be able to put together for a place of my own, or in what part of my city it will be that I'll live in.

At work, things are a little up in the air right now and I'm not sure how it's going to pan out. I'm not sure how long I'll stay. Maybe for the forseeable future, or maybe until the situation with my living arrangements become clear.

There is, however, one thing that I am sure of - I'm sure it's all going to work out. My parents will help me with the house thing. I'm not a complete idiot when it comes to my work, nor am I unemployable, so I know I'll find another job, if that's what I have to do.

tomcosgrave  16 Jul 2004


My husband was sure of me. It was either me or thoughts of the priesthood. He proposed about a month and a half after we met and I didn't think he was insane.

I'm sure that he's the fellow for me. I knew once I started recognizing parts of my dad in his mannerisms and speech. I knew that I was being told that even though he couldn't be there physically to approve, my dad was telling me it was ok.

But how was I REALLY sure? Well, it all comes down to a Jimmy Stewart movie. I glommed onto "Mr. Hobbs Takes a Vacation" at an early age. Anytime I caught it on television, I watched the rest of it and finally bought a VHS tape of the movie. By the way, it's not out on DVD and I still have the same tape. More so than any other movie, it came to epitomize ME. It wasn't necessarily the deepest, most intelligent, or most "cool" movie that I ever liked, but it was just ME.

It was either the second or third time that Joe and I saw each other. Something in the conversation came up that reminded me of the movie and I mentioned it.

As I was talking to my mom on the phone a few days later, I said that he must be good people, because he had responded with "Yes, Boompa DID mean it! He meant every damn word of it!"

And I'm damn sure of it, too.

Stef Noble  16 Jul 2004


I'm sure, but I made a mistake and now she's gone. All of you out there counting yourselves among the lucky few, I implore you to cherish your relationship. Hold it near and never let it get away from you in the fog of day to day living. At forks in the road where you are tempted to stray from your appointed path, stay the course. I miss her...I'm sure I always will.

endofinfinity  16 Jul 2004


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