But now I'm trying to let it out, trying to let people know. Many have been surprised – "I had no idea you were so upset" – not a few have said they're worried. Which threatens to send me back to my mantra: "I'm fine, I'm fine."

But I'm not fine. And I don't know when I will be. And everyone – including me – will just have to wait.

What do you do with your sorrow?